Big changes for 5 month old Cameron

Well, the time has come for me to return to work. With my leaving the house to help provide for my family, comes big changes for little Cameron. He will be starting daycare soon. I'm having an incredibly hard time wrapping my head around not being with my sweet Bug every day, all day. The last week has been emotional and frustrating for both Ryan and I. One minute I'm fine, and the next I'm out of control sobbing. My friend Carla told me the days lurking before daycare are the worst. I can't get out of my own head. "will he miss me?", "will he feel abandoned and scared?", "will he not know who I am when I come back?". Even worse, "will he NOT miss me!?" The anxiety is more than I have ever felt before. On a positive note, I start back to work on Monday, June 4th and Cameron starts daycare on Friday, June 15th at Hutch kids (daycare on my campus at work). This little lapse in child care worked out for several of us. Graciously, my mom offered to take Cameron for the two weeks before daycare. I get to return to work for two weeks and have a chance to re-establish myself (aka be psycho and cry in the bathroom alone without running down to see Cameron) and not worry about who is taking care of him, Cameron gets a chance to be away from me and be a little independent (and completely spoiled by Nonna!) and my mom gets a chance to love on her grand baby for two weeks! Thanks again mama, I would be a total wreck without you (seriously). This transition should make it a little easier to share bug with the rest of the world, I guess. It is very frustrating to have all of this emotional anxiety about my child and have people, even people without children or children in daycare, tell me how to feel. They have no idea what it is like to leave their child with a stranger (I don't know his teacher very well yet) and have no business telling someone how to feel about it. Ryan and I always say, "This too shall pass."

Durning my maternity leave, not only did I have the extended ability to bond with Cameron, I was able to become even closer to my mom. We had many play dates, late night chats and serious laugh attacks. She is my hero and I strive to be just like her. I will always cherish this special time we have had together and consider it one of my most fondest memories. I love you mama! On a happier note, Cameron is doing amazing! He is such a joy and is really starting to show off his little personality. He is a funny boy who LOVES to talk! He tells long, animated stories and even uses different facial expressions and his hands. He keeps us on our toes too. He is now rolling both ways (only to the left though) and will make it quite far before we catch him! He still loves his little monkey Frances and smiling. He is now enjoying solids and has tried quite a few (Green beans, carrots, sweet potatoes, apples and squash). His favorite is carrots and least favorite is green beans. He teases us a lot with his sleeping pattern. He will sleep through the night 3 nights in a row then turn around a have a horrible night where he wakes up 2-3 times. We cannot WAIT until he consistently sleeps through the night!!! With the suggestion from my cousin Ashlee (she has a little 6 mos old boy named Charlie), we started giving Cam an early evening nap to tie him over until 8-830. This is starting to work and he is sleeping longer. YAY!! He is such a blessing and I can't picture my life without him being the center of it. The last 5 months have been challenging yet rewarding. I wish I could rewind time and do it all over again. But saying that, I also cannot wait for the months and years to come. Here are some recent pictures of Cammers! I hope you enjoy! I will try my best to keep up with the blog even with going back to work. I want our family and friends to stay caught up with our boy and I want him to be able to look at this when he is older : )

4 month baby stats

As promised, here are Cameron's 4 month baby stats:

Height: 25.25 inches (50th percentile)
Weight: 14 pounds 10 ounces (40th percentile)
Head Circumference: 43 mm (85th percentile)




Everything looks great physically and the Dr said he is developmentally early. He is reaching his milestones ahead of schedule! I'm beyond proud of that little boy!



The Dr also gave us the green light to start rice cereal with Cammers tonight!! Next week we can give veggie solids a try! I'm so excited to start this next step in his life!